Since the beginning of a new year is a good time for reflecting on the year just ended, I’ve done a bit of thinking about what I would have changed about 2011 – actually, what I hope to change during 2012.
I constantly feel frustrated that I don’t seem to have enough time for all the priorities in my life. I tend to be a list-maker, a schedule-follower, a task-check-off kind of person. I think that’s part of the problem. If all the boxes aren’t checked at the end of each day, I feel frustrated that I didn’t get it all accomplished.
So, I’m going to try really hard in 2012 – and hopefully, beyond – not to be so hard on myself about getting it all done every day. The things that cause creep in my schedule are frequently things that I either really enjoy doing or things that I decide are a high priority regardless of what else is scheduled for the day.
I really enjoy listening to music – lots of it – in almost all genres. I have several sources on my computer and cell phone for listening to music. So if I get side-tracked for an hour from my financial statements or my because I’ve found myself caught up in a new album, it’s okay. Music, to me, can be soothing, happy, thought-provoking, soul-souring or just plain fun to hear and appreciate the talent.
I really enjoy walking and running. I’ve only been doing it seriously for two years, but I’ve found that a good four mile run/walk can clear my head, relieve my stress, change my mood and hopefully, it’s making me healthier, too. I try to spend an hour run/walking at least three days a week. And when I’m training for a race, it’s easily double that. But I love it enough to let it take up so much of my life.
I really enjoy reading. Sometimes, it’s an old-fashioned book with real paper pages. More recently, it’s become a hobby that I do on my Kindle, or online, or even on my cell phone. I don’t keep track, but I know I spend hours each week reading. Every book rewards my efforts in some way, because I love to learn and love to discover. And it’s not always books that I learn from – I’ve discovered cool places like Pinterest and Flipboard and the web sites for National Geographic and Discovery Channel and Food Network that I can spend hours browsing.
I really enjoy spending time with my grandchildren. They’re growing up so fast and the window of time where they enjoy spending time with me is ticking by so quickly. Their schedules are sometimes even more hectic than mine, but I want to try to spend more time with them while they’re young. The oldest one will be driving in a couple of years and after that, grandmas drop a few notches on their list of priorities. It’s a natural stage of growing up, and I remember that I went through that stage myself, but I don’t want to look back ten years from now and regret not spending more time with them.
Sometimes, my farm-wife responsibilities interrupt my carefully-planned schedule. But being a good wife to my farmer is one of my highest priorities. Helping him to manage the farm is important to me. My farms tasks are usually behind-the-scenes data entry or report-generating or financial analyses types of things, but I also devote a chunk of time during the harvest to managing and working at our farm produce stand. Sometimes, the farmer needs me to drop what I’m doing and help him. That can be anything from writing a check to a vendor, to throwing together a lunch for him, to driving one of the farm trucks to the field to pick him up after an evening of plowing or planting. I made a promise to love him and support him in his job and that’s always going to be a promise I’ll keep.
I want to get it all done – everybody wants to get it all done. But I’m going to be okay if it doesn’t all get done. My new mantra is that it’s better to enjoy my life and not complete every single task on time than to stress myself out over things that ultimately aren’t life or death issues anyway. Besides, I don’t really care if I get all my closets cleaned out this year, anyway.